I have anxiety but thats not who I am

I originally started my blog because I felt like I could try to turn a negative in to positive. I am on a journey to take back my life. And that starts by me being completely honest.  I have felt like I had to hide the fact that I had anxiety for a long time and I some how got it in my mind that I could not let any one see that I was anything less then perfect. I hate to disappoint people. But I'm no longer willing to live my life like that.  Hi my name is stacey and I suffer from Anxiety. Anxiety has taken alot from me and in my mind it has not rely been what you would call living. I struggle with daily activities simple task that an every day person should be able to do. I do not want pity. Because honestly I feel stronger that I ever have before. I still suffer but i'm addressing the problem I just want support from close friends and family I do not want a judging eye I do not need it as I am already very very hard on my self. Any way back to the simple task I strugg...

 So Iv been seeing a new Dr. since I have moved And though we all new I suffered from Anxiety it was never diagnosed with a name other then Anxiety . There are sooo sooo many different forms of Anxiety . She sent me home with Info and has Diagnosed me as GAD  * Generalized Anxiety Disorder*  I will just be posting the information she sent home with me. Generalized Anxiety disorder (GAD) is a mental disorder . It interferes with life functions Including relationships, Work,, and school. GAD is different from normal Anxiety , witch every one experiences at some point in there lives in response to specific life events and activities. Normal Anxiety actually helps us prepare for and get through theses life events and activities. Normal anxiety goes away after the event or  activity is over. GAD causes anxiety that is not ne or necessarily relate to a specific event or activity. It  also causes excess anxiety in proportion to specific events or activit...

This year has been the strangest and hardest. We moved out of state for work we are adjusting in a strange new area.  We are getting use to things.  I was determined as soon as we  got hear to make a home. To get work  and make things as normal as I possibly can for my family.  Change is hard for me. It always hard for any one I guess but for a person who suffers from sever Anxiety  it can become very overwhelming.  I have made a choice to try to live differently I still struggle I still have anxiety. Some days I feel like I am drowning. I force my self to go to work I try to be social. Its the strangest thing having anxiety a part of you wants to be social and have friends another part wants to hide. some time it can be quite overwhelming. I am coping right now. I came out to this new state determined to make a difference in my life in my family's life. I have made goals for my self. som are long term and will take awhile to reach some I am doing now...

 Hi every one its been awhile. But Iv had some thing on my mind and that's why should I stay quiet about Anxiety? I dont think you should. There was once a time where I felt like If I let any one know I had Anxiety that meant I was less of a person or meant I was weak, So I consumed it I struggled silently and it became very self destructive to be honest with you. There are thing that I dont talk about because again I dont want to hurt any one or I feel like it makes me less of a person. I was trying to find ways to self medicate. I was looking for help with out actually telling anyone I need help. This did not lead to addiction  or anything like that but led to a very dark place I was very very unhappy and my mother new it. I finely got help I asked for help and I have been dealing with this Anxiety for many many years. I have learned over time that Anxiety dose not make me weak or lesser. I have learned Many people suffer from it . I also started this blog to speak up about ...

When I went back to work after being a stay at home mom who suffers from anxiety My thoughts were pretty negative. I went in expecting to fail. At everything. Most of all I went in thinking I couldn't   count on any one there. Anxiety can do all of the above to you. fill your head full of doubt  connecting with people can be very   hard . The feeling of you fitting in or belong is also not there. I still have days where I struggle. I always will that's just how a person who has been diagnosed with an anxiety  disorder lives. Good days, Bad day's, As much as I want it to its not going to just go away. It is a part of who I am, But its not who I am .  Though it may seam small to some have over come a very big obstetrical by going back to work. And this is in a very humble way of me saying this but I am proud of my self. The struggle and fear is Very ,Very real and I am doing it. I keep fighting to go and I still get nervous though theirs no reason to. Iv also ...

My last blog post was how hard I was having with returning to work after 8 years. I'm finely feeling comfortable. The first week or so was so hard on me I came home crying almost every  night. I was having to deal with new things and felt overwhelmed with so many things . Being away from home and my family. Coming home and my kids were already in bed because they had school in the morning. I was so unhappy. Having to deal with the public. There were time and still are when I just want to hide.  Anxiety has a way of making you doubt your self. This is some information I found  on another blog. And the facts are dead on. The info below is from http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/anxiety-schmanxiety/2014/06/anxiety-and-self-doubt/ Anxiety and Self-Doubt *At the core of an anxiety disorder is not knowing when it is appropriate to trust our feelings. If a person can’t trust his or her own thoughts because they are saying there is danger when there clearly is not, how ca...

I try to keep my post positive . It's pretty easy when you suffer from anxiety to think about the  negative. I don't like doing that . My life has taken some turns and I after 8 years of being a stay at home mother have returned to work. I am struggling majorly with anxity from this. I feel completely overwhelmed . I also just don't know who to turn to. I don't know who to talk to. I feel like if I open up and complain like I am doing now no one will care no one will understand  or people will just assume I am throwing my self one big pitty party. Mabey I am I don't know. It's been awhile sence I last posted on my blog and why I feel like this post is taking a 180 on how I want my blog to be positive and helpful to others going threw anxiety I have decided to also show the ugly side.  I ask my self why are you struggling so much why is it so hard to go to work and just feel ok. Thousands of other people go and do it every day.  Why do I feel so alone in this? I...