I try to stay positive

I try to keep my post positive . It's pretty easy when you suffer from anxiety to think about the  negative. I don't like doing that . My life has taken some turns and I after 8 years of being a stay at home mother have returned to work. I am struggling majorly with anxity from this. I feel completely overwhelmed . I also just don't know who to turn to. I don't know who to talk to. I feel like if I open up and complain like I am doing now no one will care no one will understand  or people will just assume I am throwing my self one big pitty party. Mabey I am I don't know. It's been awhile sence I last posted on my blog and why I feel like this post is taking a 180 on how I want my blog to be positive and helpful to others going threw anxiety I have decided to also show the ugly side.  I ask my self why are you struggling so much why is it so hard to go to work and just feel ok. Thousands of other people go and do it every day.  Why do I feel so alone in this? I have my amazing husbands support  but I just feel completely overwhelmed . I feel like shutting down.  I keep telling my self to be stronger or don't be so hard on your self.  But I don't know how not to be..  Why is it so hard to just breath and relax and just feel like everything is going to be ok?  Why do I feel this way. I don't want to...so I try .. I try to stay positive , I try to be strong... But sometimes .. This is what happens. I am  flooded  With thoughts and this is anxiety ..  This is what it  dose to me.  So I may cry or feel completely like giving up. And when I get this way I get hard on my self . Mabey that's what keeps me going I don't know. I tell my self to suck it up , to be strong . Sometimes I don't know if I am...

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