Anxiety in the lunch room

I  remember  being in Jr. High I was in the cafeteria . It was a every day Routine nothing different nothing new. Iv been there and done this before so I dont know what it was about this day but I remember feeling extremely nervous and scared. I started to feel like all the air in the room was bring sucked out ,like my lungs were feeling with water. This is a feeling I get quite often now. Its like I am drowning ,my lungs wont work. They wont expand, Iv done my research and talked to a few people who go threw Anxiety and this is a very common feeling. *The drowning feeling*  Anyway back to the lunch room. I don't believe I had been diagnosed yet with Anxiety however I had been experiencing it, and suffering from it way before this lunch room incident. This is just one of the memories I have that stand out the most. All I could hear was  chaos and commotion. people laughing and talking the lunch trays being placed on to the tables and all of that noise turned in to one very loud sound. I couldn't think I couldn't breath and I had no clue what was happening to me. I don't re call if any of my friends were with me  but I ditched my tray and some how made it outside into the courtyard. It was a horrifying moment for me. And I had no clue what was happening to me. Later I was diagnosed with a social Anxiety. Hear is a very informed link you can go to about  Social Anxiety.
*  https://socialanxietyinstitute.org/what-is-social-anxiety *

 I struggle in large gropes of people especially. I feel like I am a very fun and even silly person. But it is very easy for me to shut people out. People with Anxiety have a very sensitive fight or flight reaction that every one has. But with an Anxiety disorder it is heighten.  Hears a little bit I found online about that. 
*Anxiety is the body’s natural response to danger, an automatic alarm that goes off when you feel threatened, under pressure, or are facing a stressful situation.
In moderation, anxiety isn’t always a bad thing. In fact, anxiety can help you stay alert and focused, spur you to action, and motivate you to solve problems. But when anxiety is constant or overwhelming, when it interferes with your relationships and activities, it stops being functional—that’s when you’ve crossed the line from normal, productive anxiety into the territory of anxiety disorders.


pan·ic at·tack
noun
  1. a sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.

  

Symptoms of anxiety attacks include:

  • Surge of overwhelming panic
  • Feeling of losing control or going crazy
  • Heart palpitations or chest pain
  • Feeling like you’re going to pass out
  • Trouble breathing or choking sensation
  • Hyperventilation
  • Hot flashes or chills
  • Trembling or shaking
  • Nausea or stomach cramps
  • Feeling detached or unreal

What I am trying to do with my blog is to  spread awareness.  To help create a better understanding. I my self do not always understand. I have been threw this for years now. I am married  and have 2 beautiful Children. I want to be happy and health so that I can be the best Wife/ Mother/ Human. I live my life in fear. It is a fear that is just there for no reason.  I worry some times about everything and nothing at all. That is all a part of Anxiety  I have been threw counseling to help better  my self and help better understand.  And why this is also a *Hush Hush * situation I am going to speak up about it. I want to use my knowledge and experience and turn it in to something positive . Counseling can help. It has helped me and I am not ashamed of it. I am grateful for it. Please dont be scared to ask for help. Its OK. We are human we are not perfect. We are all flawed in one way or another and life is about learning,  growing , Changing, And  bettering our Self's. there is nothing wrong with that.

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