When you realize your capable

My last blog post was how hard I was having with returning to work after 8 years. I'm finely feeling comfortable. The first week or so was so hard on me I came home crying almost every  night. I was having to deal with new things and felt overwhelmed with so many things . Being away from home and my family. Coming home and my kids were already in bed because they had school in the morning. I was so unhappy. Having to deal with the public. There were time and still are when I just want to hide.  Anxiety has a way of making you doubt your self. This is some information I found  on another blog. And the facts are dead on. The info below is from http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/anxiety-schmanxiety/2014/06/anxiety-and-self-doubt/

Anxiety and Self-Doubt

*At the core of an anxiety disorder is not knowing when it is appropriate to trust our feelings. If a person can’t trust his or her own thoughts because they are saying there is danger when there clearly is not, how can the person trust anything?  In some cases, it is easy to know when feelings and reality are not in sync. As an example, if you feel the world is ending, the evidence around us will easily show that it is not. A standard therapy trick is to line up the facts with the feeling and make the necessary adjustments.
It’s been established, however, that those of us with anxiety disorders can’t trust our own judgment. That little voice in our heads is pretty damn useless, all things considered, and therein lies the problem. Going back to my world ending analogy, it is easy to find “proof” the world is not ending.*
I my self with my anxiety  can some times stop my self and realize that my feelings are not correct.  And I know and have been told then you should be able to stop your Anxiety. That is far from true. Why sometimes I am able to get my Anxiety under control sometimes I have no choice  but to go threw an Anxiety attack.  Some times I dont realize why I am so scared until after I have gone threw the motions . And with me and My anxiety I know it makes no sense and I know I sound crazy. But I live in fear. I hate it. I dont like it but I have no choice. Im scared of something thats not even there. I am scared of messing up ,of not being good enough, I worry. I worry about everything and nothing at all . This is all part of Anxiety. I know its silly . It is very real. I know every one deals with some type of anxiety  in some way or form. I know that anxiety effects over Anxiety Disorder Statistics. Anxiety Disorders affect 18.1percent of adults in the United States (approximately 40 millionadults between the ages of 18 to 54). - National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH).  although I am still struggling and it would of been so easy for me to quite work and give up I wanted to. I also have  to step back and evaluate my life and what is actually going on. That's also something hard to do when you struggle with Anxiety. I dont always do this but I try to. I know my family needs me to work right now. So I kept pushing my self. And Now I'm not crying when I get home from work. I am  adjusting. I still get nervous about going But I keep going. And I'm not finding it as hard as I was. I'm making it. I am fighting threw it. And you know what.... It is an amazing feeling when you over come that feeling of "im not good enough" When you start to realize you are capable. Keep fighting, Keep pushing your self. Do not believe what your Anxiety is telling you. My mind is always filled with a thousand *What If's* I feel like my anxiety holds me back from many things in life.  I hate it. I dont like feeling that way and Im going to keep pushing my self. If you struggle with anxiety I know the easy thing is to give up. DONT. I know that If I can feel this way . Accomplished and capable  so can you. Do not let Anxiety win. There will be bad days and very very bad days but If I can do this so can you. Keep fighting. find something to fight for, Anything. For me its my family.I will Succeed for them. Find whats worth fighting for in your life. Fight for you! Your enough.  No one in this world can make you happy. That's your job. Your job is to make your self happy.  Your happiness  lays in your own hands So do it. I believe in you.

Symptoms of an anxiety attack can include:

  • A feeling of overwhelming fear
  • Feeling of going crazy or losing control
  • Feeling you are in grave danger
  • Feeling you might pass out
  • A surge of doom and gloom
  • An urgency to escape
  • Dizziness
  • Heart Palpitations
  • Trembling
  • Sweating
  • Shortness of breath
  • Chest pressure or pain
  • Turning pale
  • Feeling detached from reality
  • Weak in the knees
  • Burning skin
  • Pins and needles
  • Hot and cold flushes
  • Numbness and tingling sensations

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