It all starts in your thoughts .

Oh hell... hear it comes again that overwhelming feeling of  the walls and the world is closing in on me. It happens here and there. I get stuck in my head overwhelmed about things that are going on in life, and the air starts to feel a bit thinner and my lungs no longer feel like they are expanding and functioning like they should. It can turn into full blown hyperventilating. It's the start of a panic attack I feel it coming on. Sometimes I can somewhat sit myself down and breath threw it. other times I hyperventilate think im dying and then its over .. I kinda just have to hold on and ride it out threw the storm.  I have a hard time not being busy as well because I find the more I keep myself busy the less time I have to overthink life and things that bother me. I have to distract myself from my own mind. That is  where it all start is in my thoughts. I panic and feel defeated by life obstacles  . Me distracting myself by throwing myself into work or whatever it is to keep myself from becoming trapped in my own mind. This is not always a good thing as it sometimes is away for me not to deal with the problem it's more of me create a detour around it. I always come back to whatever it is bothering me  eventually  because there is no running away from problems the only thing you can do to change something is to face it .  When you have anxiety overthinking is a big deal of it. your mind becomes your enemy as you think and think and worry and worry . It solves nothing but cause more problems.  Another thing is my worry of failure . I have worried about  this so much that is has actually stopped me from trying. So This year i've tried very hard to change that.  If we do not fail at anything we never rely live , people who succeed fail all the time. they fall and then get back up and try again. for that is honestly the only real way to succeed is by failing and learning by mistakes. It's funny how our own mind can be our enemy. By thinking negative thoughts about our self. by over thinking life and letting it stop us from doing what we want. Let's try to rewire our thoughts and brake threw this wall we have created to stop ourselves from trying  and lets get out of our comfort zone because that's the only way change is going to be made . Its not going to be easy  there are going to be set backs. This is not something that  will go away. But I can keep trying.  For me that's the only choice. Push on push threw keep going.   I have to that's only thing I know how to keep  my self from just giving up because believe me I have days I dont feel like trying. Anxiety is not a choice , You dont turn it on or off.  A way to try to be positive is in the way we think. Thats where is starts is in our thoughts. 

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