I want to kick Anxiety's ass

This year has been the strangest and hardest. We moved out of state for work we are adjusting in a strange new area.  We are getting use to things.  I was determined as soon as we  got hear to make a home. To get work  and make things as normal as I possibly can for my family.  Change is hard for me. It always hard for any one I guess but for a person who suffers from sever Anxiety  it can become very overwhelming.  I have made a choice to try to live differently I still struggle I still have anxiety. Some days I feel like I am drowning. I force my self to go to work I try to be social. Its the strangest thing having anxiety a part of you wants to be social and have friends another part wants to hide. some time it can be quite overwhelming. I am coping right now. I came out to this new state determined to make a difference in my life in my family's life. I have made goals for my self. som are long term and will take awhile to reach some I am doing now. One was getting a job. It helps my family financially for me to work but that is not the main reason I do this. It takes me out of my safety bubble it forces me to have to participate with the real world. when you have anxiety it is so easy to shut your self out. I can close my self off and shut my self in so fast with out a bat of an eye. I know its not healthy but for me its safe. I want to live life. I Want to feel alive and not like i'm fading away. I will always be a bit of a loner and that's ok. That is just me. in a bat of an eye.  I know I have people who love me and count on me. I know my anxiety is frustrating to the ones I care about. Its frustrating to me as well. Like I have said in other post find your reason to get up. Make a list  of positive thing in your life. Hang it up so you can read it every day. Also make a list of 3 things you life about your self and repeat them to your self
Example:::
You are:::
Strong
Beutiful
Brave
Something along those lines but  have the words speak to you. Something you feel about yourself. I reat 3 thing in my head when I am about to leave to work  to remind my self I am capable . write the on a sticky note hang it on your door so you see it every time you go to leave your house. Reapeat these thing when you have moment of doubts. come to terms that  you will have good days and sometimes you have to have bad days. my point it Never give up. I know for me I am sick of feeling so held back I want to live life and enjoy life. I want to be happy and not live in fear. I want to push my self  I want to kick anxiety's ass!  

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