I have anxiety but thats not who I am

 Hi every one its been awhile. But Iv had some thing on my mind and that's why should I stay quiet about Anxiety? I dont think you should. There was once a time where I felt like If I let any one know I had Anxiety that meant I was less of a person or meant I was weak, So I consumed it I struggled silently and it became very self destructive to be honest with you. There are thing that I dont talk about because again I dont want to hurt any one or I feel like it makes me less of a person. I was trying to find ways to self medicate. I was looking for help with out actually telling anyone I need help. This did not lead to addiction  or anything like that but led to a very dark place I was very very unhappy and my mother new it. I finely got help I asked for help and I have been dealing with this Anxiety for many many years. I have learned over time that Anxiety dose not make me weak or lesser. I have learned Many people suffer from it . I also started this blog to speak up about ...

When I went back to work after being a stay at home mom who suffers from anxiety My thoughts were pretty negative. I went in expecting to fail. At everything. Most of all I went in thinking I couldn't   count on any one there. Anxiety can do all of the above to you. fill your head full of doubt  connecting with people can be very   hard . The feeling of you fitting in or belong is also not there. I still have days where I struggle. I always will that's just how a person who has been diagnosed with an anxiety  disorder lives. Good days, Bad day's, As much as I want it to its not going to just go away. It is a part of who I am, But its not who I am .  Though it may seam small to some have over come a very big obstetrical by going back to work. And this is in a very humble way of me saying this but I am proud of my self. The struggle and fear is Very ,Very real and I am doing it. I keep fighting to go and I still get nervous though theirs no reason to. Iv also ...

My last blog post was how hard I was having with returning to work after 8 years. I'm finely feeling comfortable. The first week or so was so hard on me I came home crying almost every  night. I was having to deal with new things and felt overwhelmed with so many things . Being away from home and my family. Coming home and my kids were already in bed because they had school in the morning. I was so unhappy. Having to deal with the public. There were time and still are when I just want to hide.  Anxiety has a way of making you doubt your self. This is some information I found  on another blog. And the facts are dead on. The info below is from http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/anxiety-schmanxiety/2014/06/anxiety-and-self-doubt/ Anxiety and Self-Doubt *At the core of an anxiety disorder is not knowing when it is appropriate to trust our feelings. If a person can’t trust his or her own thoughts because they are saying there is danger when there clearly is not, how ca...

I try to keep my post positive . It's pretty easy when you suffer from anxiety to think about the  negative. I don't like doing that . My life has taken some turns and I after 8 years of being a stay at home mother have returned to work. I am struggling majorly with anxity from this. I feel completely overwhelmed . I also just don't know who to turn to. I don't know who to talk to. I feel like if I open up and complain like I am doing now no one will care no one will understand  or people will just assume I am throwing my self one big pitty party. Mabey I am I don't know. It's been awhile sence I last posted on my blog and why I feel like this post is taking a 180 on how I want my blog to be positive and helpful to others going threw anxiety I have decided to also show the ugly side.  I ask my self why are you struggling so much why is it so hard to go to work and just feel ok. Thousands of other people go and do it every day.  Why do I feel so alone in this? I...

We are people . We are just people who tend to worry more then most.  We know that what we go threw dose not make sense and it gets in the way. We get just as frustrated with our self's as our friends or family may. Don't tell me to suck it up. Do you honestly think I would be doing this to my self if I could just suck it up... Its not fun. It's not like I wake up and think to my self I Want to feel like crap today, I am going to have anxiety ... dont tell me to learn to deal with it. It may not seam like it but I am dealing with it. some days are worse then others. there is no control. I dont pick when I am going to have anxiety ... None of  that helps. We know its hard on you. we are not trying to hurt you. It hurts us when we go threw it , It hurts us knowing it's effecting you. When we are going threw Anxiety or a panic attack do not give up on us. We need you. you need to understand that when you are going threw it sometimes there is nothing you can do to comfort ...

I want to start this  post out by saying being a mother in its own  comes with difficulties. I also want to start out by saying being a mother is one of the most challenging yet rewarding gifts I have ever received. I have struggled with my Anxiety  for a long while. It is an on going battle that I will face the rest of my life. My oldest Kid is 8 years old right now. I feel like yes there are still challenges and difficult times behind  but I also have a little better understanding of my Anxiety. It is still something I will never fully grasp. Every day I work on it . I am going to get into something personal but I also feel like it is something women should hear, And be aware of.  I only have 2 children. I am also from Utah. Utah is a state where you get married young I was 20 years old and you also have LARGE family's.  How ever I do see a change in the trend with fewer large family's. I still get asked if I am going to have more children. My answer is ...

 So I was doing some reading and  did you know there are 6    Different types of Anxiety Disorders. Each with there own symptoms .  I often find my self woundering why any one has to go threw these kind of things. Its not fun. I my self have Social Anxiety. I sturgle in large gropes of people I dont know why. I know when I am open about this people often worry how to act around me. They think its weird.  Well yeah it is weird... I dont know why I strugle with it. I dont want to .  I just do. I am just a  girl who tends  to worrie more and stress easyer then most shold. there is no need to act diffrent around me. I laugh I joke I feel. some time I may feel to much Generlized Anxiety dissorder Anxiety attaks (Panic dissorder) Obsessive compilsive disorder  Social anxiety disorder PhobiaPost-trumatic stress  Generalized anxiety disorder If constant worries and fears distract you from your day-to-day activities,...