I have anxiety but thats not who I am

Oh hell... hear it comes again that overwhelming feeling of  the walls and the world is closing in on me. It happens here and there. I get stuck in my head overwhelmed about things that are going on in life, and the air starts to feel a bit thinner and my lungs no longer feel like they are expanding and functioning like they should. It can turn into full blown hyperventilating. It's the start of a panic attack I feel it coming on. Sometimes I can somewhat sit myself down and breath threw it. other times I hyperventilate think im dying and then its over .. I kinda just have to hold on and ride it out threw the storm.  I have a hard time not being busy as well because I find the more I keep myself busy the less time I have to overthink life and things that bother me. I have to distract myself from my own mind. That is  where it all start is in my thoughts. I panic and feel defeated by life obstacles  . Me distracting myself by throwing myself into work or whatever it ...

Hello blog , it’s been awhile. Iv just been you know living life, being a wife ,a mother ,working,paying bills. That type of thing.  Still dealing with that anxiety stuff all at the same time. To day I was trying to exsplain some of what anxiety feels like.  Now anxiety can be differnt in every one . But for me I was trying to exsplain   fear. I feel scared. all the time. I was trying to exsplain some time so don’t want to feel it. And how it physically hurts . The best I can describe is  like some one punched a hole threw you. Like just Bamb it hits you and it’s like there’s a hole in your chest. And this was still hard to understand .  So I  tried to give examples . Imagine some one telling you your dog died and bam 💥 your caught off guard and there’s just that instant  pain. That’s the best I can describe it.  Just that  punch to the gut take your breath away kind of feeling. A symptom of  anxiety is fear. And I know and Iv com...

I originally started my blog because I felt like I could try to turn a negative in to positive. I am on a journey to take back my life. And that starts by me being completely honest.  I have felt like I had to hide the fact that I had anxiety for a long time and I some how got it in my mind that I could not let any one see that I was anything less then perfect. I hate to disappoint people. But I'm no longer willing to live my life like that.  Hi my name is stacey and I suffer from Anxiety. Anxiety has taken alot from me and in my mind it has not rely been what you would call living. I struggle with daily activities simple task that an every day person should be able to do. I do not want pity. Because honestly I feel stronger that I ever have before. I still suffer but i'm addressing the problem I just want support from close friends and family I do not want a judging eye I do not need it as I am already very very hard on my self. Any way back to the simple task I strugg...

 So Iv been seeing a new Dr. since I have moved And though we all new I suffered from Anxiety it was never diagnosed with a name other then Anxiety . There are sooo sooo many different forms of Anxiety . She sent me home with Info and has Diagnosed me as GAD  * Generalized Anxiety Disorder*  I will just be posting the information she sent home with me. Generalized Anxiety disorder (GAD) is a mental disorder . It interferes with life functions Including relationships, Work,, and school. GAD is different from normal Anxiety , witch every one experiences at some point in there lives in response to specific life events and activities. Normal Anxiety actually helps us prepare for and get through theses life events and activities. Normal anxiety goes away after the event or  activity is over. GAD causes anxiety that is not ne or necessarily relate to a specific event or activity. It  also causes excess anxiety in proportion to specific events or activit...

This year has been the strangest and hardest. We moved out of state for work we are adjusting in a strange new area.  We are getting use to things.  I was determined as soon as we  got hear to make a home. To get work  and make things as normal as I possibly can for my family.  Change is hard for me. It always hard for any one I guess but for a person who suffers from sever Anxiety  it can become very overwhelming.  I have made a choice to try to live differently I still struggle I still have anxiety. Some days I feel like I am drowning. I force my self to go to work I try to be social. Its the strangest thing having anxiety a part of you wants to be social and have friends another part wants to hide. some time it can be quite overwhelming. I am coping right now. I came out to this new state determined to make a difference in my life in my family's life. I have made goals for my self. som are long term and will take awhile to reach some I am doing now...

 Hi every one its been awhile. But Iv had some thing on my mind and that's why should I stay quiet about Anxiety? I dont think you should. There was once a time where I felt like If I let any one know I had Anxiety that meant I was less of a person or meant I was weak, So I consumed it I struggled silently and it became very self destructive to be honest with you. There are thing that I dont talk about because again I dont want to hurt any one or I feel like it makes me less of a person. I was trying to find ways to self medicate. I was looking for help with out actually telling anyone I need help. This did not lead to addiction  or anything like that but led to a very dark place I was very very unhappy and my mother new it. I finely got help I asked for help and I have been dealing with this Anxiety for many many years. I have learned over time that Anxiety dose not make me weak or lesser. I have learned Many people suffer from it . I also started this blog to speak up about ...