I have anxiety but thats not who I am

Oh hell... hear it comes again that overwhelming feeling of  the walls and the world is closing in on me. It happens here and there. I get stuck in my head overwhelmed about things that are going on in life, and the air starts to feel a bit thinner and my lungs no longer feel like they are expanding and functioning like they should. It can turn into full blown hyperventilating. It's the start of a panic attack I feel it coming on. Sometimes I can somewhat sit myself down and breath threw it. other times I hyperventilate think im dying and then its over .. I kinda just have to hold on and ride it out threw the storm.  I have a hard time not being busy as well because I find the more I keep myself busy the less time I have to overthink life and things that bother me. I have to distract myself from my own mind. That is  where it all start is in my thoughts. I panic and feel defeated by life obstacles  . Me distracting myself by throwing myself into work or whatever it ...

Hello blog , it’s been awhile. Iv just been you know living life, being a wife ,a mother ,working,paying bills. That type of thing.  Still dealing with that anxiety stuff all at the same time. To day I was trying to exsplain some of what anxiety feels like.  Now anxiety can be differnt in every one . But for me I was trying to exsplain   fear. I feel scared. all the time. I was trying to exsplain some time so don’t want to feel it. And how it physically hurts . The best I can describe is  like some one punched a hole threw you. Like just Bamb it hits you and it’s like there’s a hole in your chest. And this was still hard to understand .  So I  tried to give examples . Imagine some one telling you your dog died and bam 💥 your caught off guard and there’s just that instant  pain. That’s the best I can describe it.  Just that  punch to the gut take your breath away kind of feeling. A symptom of  anxiety is fear. And I know and Iv com...